However, I have been on the receiving end of some pretty fierce prejudice FROM TRANS WOMEN AND TRANS MEN in regards my physical appearance, passing ability and general public presentation. I’m a fifty-eight year old trans woman who had a serious heart attack three years after beginning hormones and changing all my paperwork. Now I cannot complete any further physical changes because I’m full of blood thinners–for that metal valve in my heart. No surgeon here or in Thailand would dare touch me for purely legal liability reasons. I’d bleed to death, in other words. So I’m stuck with this face and this annoying, useless thing between my legs.

Is this a factor in my acceptance within the trans* community? You bet it is. I was expelled from the largest civil rights group in the State of Oregon because their leadership decided that my appearance was “sending the wrong message.” I was invited to resign from a volunteer counselor position for an LGBT youth group because the director was convinced that a “middle-aged man in a dress” could not possibly be anything but a sexual predator. (She threatened me with a police investigation and made it clear that the kids would say whatever she told them to say if they wanted to stay in the program. I’m no fool. I resigned)
I have had my membership applications to the largest trans* alliance in Oregon rejected TWICE because the leadership was and still is convinced that my presentation is detrimental to their public image and stated goals. (The president told me, “You wear too much makeup for any of us to take you seriously. You haven’t done a thing about your beard and your tits are obviously falsies. We don’t like you, we don’t need you and we don’t want you.”) Even the group that meets at my university and should be held to the inclusiveness of their charter addressed me as “Sir” when I attended one of their meetings and referred to me as “he” and “him.”

Bigotry isn’t limited to cisgender folk or Christian fundamentalists or greasy politicians looking to make political capital. (Hello, I’m talking to YOU, Barney Frank!) Those trans* folk in positions of power, either major or minor, have an unpleasant habit of excluding people they don’t like or deem unacceptable. (A trans* friend of mine, one of the few remaining, refers to these people as the “tranny police”; self-appointed and full of nearly religious zeal to eliminate the unacceptable) Perhaps this is a pendulum-over-reaction from having been treated so poorly themselves. Perhaps. And perhaps it’s just another example of our monkey-minds reverting to ancient wiring that demands we become the top monkey at any cost.

I don’t care anymore. I no longer attend trans* events and I no longer interact with other trans* folk for any reason at any time. I no longer have the strength or patience to endure bigotry from those alleged to represent me or have my best interests at heart. As far as I can tell, the only interest the so-called “leaders” of the trans* community have is increasing their own prestige and political capital.

(I apologize if this triple-posts, having some issues Gravatar or whatever)

My reply Twit on @7rin
@ https://twitter.com/7rin/status/374743474106400768
If I could’ve @ 6 like I wanted @patienceinbee @cisnormativity it’d've worked cuz the #socialisation would’ve been included. 2 late 4 me now

It’s the same as being an adoptee – I’m both and neither.