ACCOZZAGLIA

if i ever plan to begin school in the fall, please remind me to never, ever move across country in the autumn.

this evening, i’m browsing several notes that were practically (though not exactly technically) locked away on my PDA before it died on the 30th of September. and because i rely so heavily upon what is written inside, i’m literally adrift in its absence.

that is, until last Monday, when a slightly spindled, refurbished replacement took its place.

this means i have zero chance to be accepted to NYU for next fall.

it’s my responsibility to take care of preliminary steps before deadlines are met. that’s why i rely upon technology to remind me. and without it, see above.

i’d nearly forgotten about several people who were added to my directory just before my departure to Seattle. by dumb luck, they were HotSynced to sparkle_vixen‘s PC box before my first Edge went horribly silent.

i’m hating life tonight because i do not have the NYU card in my playing hand now.

given how much has happened to me when i stepped into the event vortex around the time of CONvergence, it’s not like i unquestionably expected to be taking up residence in a nicely-appointed flat somewhere in Manhattan, severing nearly all discretionary communication with the outside word for the next three years.

but knowing that the potential is now removed for another year is heartbreaking. especially since i was able to set many feet upon its open campus in June.

i will not be a “Fighting Violet” in 2003.

there’s still the U-Dub. i’m not letting that card fall out of the deck just yet.

i have much work to do, despite the undercurrent working against my dreams.