ACCOZZAGLIA

being sick last week really took a toll on the countless things i ned to wrap up before i leave for seattle next week. and no, while i’m not moving there in september, i pretty much need to finalise and confirm all the work that i haven’t completed and all obligations that haven’t been wrapped up yet.

i forgot just how stressful moving can be. and it’s never about the transit or packing itself. also, because it’s been almost a decade since i lived in a metro area as long as here, it’s just that much harder to leave here, as much as i want to get the hell away already.

there’s irony in that. i swear there is.

so, as i take this 28 to the 19 to spin for my last scheduled gig ever in this city, i feel slightly empty right now. a little forlorn. somewhat tired. and resigned to the fact that this place never tried to live up to its promise back on that gorgeous summer weekend in june 1997.

time and again, i couldn’t help but think how much a shame this city really has demonstrated itself — in that it can’t accept that this is a 24-hour world (except here), in that people prefer to be insular and inward, and in that it prizes its homogeneity.

ummm, but i didn’t set out to bemoan or seek any kind of personal redress of the grievances i have for this place.

i feel tired today. yet, i also feel like i got very little accomplished this week, even though on paper, that might not be the case. after all, my c.v. was rewritten for the seattle market. most of my home is clean and ready for packing things up and getting all the other matters taken care of. my mail situation was finally cleared up today. i’ve put closure on several mainstays in my life this past year and let many know that i’ll be leaving. ad while i still have to execute one client project before i leave, i was able to get much of this in motion today.

and i still get to go to the state fair. on monday. this is a keen denouement to a state that has bestowed some really bad shit upon a certain someone in these last five years, and with me to witness every single last detail as intimately as i did.

i want to be in tgpeanut‘s arms tonight. now. in quiet solitude. i want this chapter’s stress to come to an immediate stop.

october 7th couldn’t come soon enough, much less september 4th.